Saturday, February 7, 2009

Day 38....

Well, i gotta tell you,
due to my moods, the whole eating right thing has gone out the window the last couple of days...
And i know why!!
I feel i dont have control over my life, the only thing i can control is what i eat, so i eat what i want!!!!
So the whole New Years Resolution about gaining control over my life is far reaching as it does have a huge impact on my weight.....
So tomorrow I have to wake up and take control again!!!
Its not as easy as you think, most poeple think that we can make decisions and do what we like.
I do pretty much, except for anything of any importance....
There is a HUGE step i want to take at the moment and it is a HUGE step, finance wise, time wise, balance wise.. It will effect every part of my life. I alone can make the decision, but Stu keeps beinging the negatives to the forefront and i feel i am losing control over making the decision as he is not brain washing, but i kinda feel that he is.
Im a glass is half full person and he is the glass is half empty, so that is really effecting me this last couple of days,
I feel i am losing control of making the decision for myself...
Im 40 years old, ive raised two wonderful kids. My son is gainfully employed and my daughter is now getting on the right track again..
Isnt it time now for me to do something for me!!!
I have another few years worth of good stuff in me, and i feel i would like to use them, before i settle back down to baby sit grandkids... Which is part of my 10 year plan by the way.. Im really looking forward to it.
I just want five years to fullfill a dream i have had since i was 18.
I know its a huge responsibility and a huge financial gamble....
But i want to do it and i know i can make it work...
So, now ive left this criptic post and your trying to figure out what the hell i am talking about!!!!
You will have to wait.
If it happens or not, i will share....
So, this is me today
We are getting Solo ready for the HACK day tomorrow..
He's so pretty now,
He's had a shave and everything!!! LOL
Seeya

7 comments:

Wendy said...

All the best with making the decision that is right for you Jodi! Fingers crossed for you.

Brissmiths said...

Hi Jodi Keep believing in yourself! I'm guessing that you are doing something in relation to scrapbooking?? All the best whatever you decide. Susan

Lisa A said...

Hey Jodi
Keep believing remember what you said to me a few weeks ago we can do this together.

AmandaMcGregor74 said...

love how babysitting grandkids is part of your 10 year plan - have you told Josh and Emelia that!!

Kerry said...

Hi Jode,

You will come to the right decision in good time. Don't let anyone presure you.
Good luck.

Kylie said...

You are a half glass full girl & don't you forget that!! You go for it...whateva it is???!!!Remember all the good that you have done & joy that you bring to others!! & that you've lost over 5kgs!!! :0)

Jules the Bling Princess said...

Jodi,

Life is too short, and so many of us never, ever get off our backsides and actually "do" something with what we are given. So what if the gamble fails - in the end, it is only money. And too many of us, use that as an excuse, not to take a leap of faith. Wouldn't you rather go to your grave knowing you tried (and either failed or succeeded), rather than not trying at all? Do what feels right to you, not what society says is right for you...

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