There has been so much hype over these weeks these last months, and I've finally finished reading all three.
I couldn't wait to finish reading them as the whole experience was really disturbing for me.
It made my nauseousness!
I've finished reading the last book this afternoon and thought that I would be able to forget about it, but the last few pages had the original meeting between Ana and Christian from Grey's perspective and it made me hate him all over again!!!!
I rated these books a 5 stars and people automatically think its because the reader liked the erotica when it so isn't the reason I read and continue to read these books. So I thought I would do a blog post as a way of getting some kind of closure from the effects this book had on me!
This will contain spoilers, so if you have not read the books yet, don't continue to read this:
This also contains course language and sexual content:
The books are really thought provoking! Which I hate in a book! Its the total opposite of the reason I read!
I read to switch off, not on!
I'm confused about the Characters and I cant stop thinking about it!
I don't know if Ana is exceptionally strong, or exceptionally stupid!
What virginal, life inexperienced young woman would even contemplate going into this kind of relationship.
The controlling arrogant personality
Signing a confidentiality agreement on the first date!!!
Having your virginity taken so violently!
Then being offered the "opportunity" to become this arseholes submissive!
She has to obey
Agree to any sexual activity deemed fit and pleasurable by the arsehole
Being told when to sleep how much to eat and what to eat!
Being told what to wear
Being told to work out to keep fit for the benefit of this arseholes demands on her body
Being told to keep clean!
Being told that if she "Stepped out of line" she would be punished by any means seen fit by the arsehole!
Being told you have to be on call for whenever this arsehole wants to smack you around!
Being told that the arsehole can do whatever he wants to you, but you cant touch him at all!
Signing off on sexual favours you will perform or have done to you by the arsehole such as: Masturbation, Fellatio, Cunnilingus, intercourse both ends, and fisting both ends!! OMG! And this is FINE???
Being told that you will have apparatuses used upon you such as vibrators, dildos, butt plugs and the like!
Being told to expect being bound by your hands, your ankles, your knees, your elbows, extremendies to extremendies, spreader bars, gagging, being bound with rope, tape cuffs! Being suspended!!! OMG!
And finally agreeing to being punished with spanking, paddling, whipping, caning, Biting, Clamping, Ice, Wax and other methods to give pain!!!!
And she isn't a prostitute???
She's not selling herself to this man? Its an acceptable from of a modern relationship according to the shrink!!
And this is from some guy that you are starting to care for??? What person in their right mind would have feelings for this kind of person?
If there was no contract involved it would be called rape and torture!!!
What kind of woman would agree to this? Hence my confusion about Ana.
How do you even get past this initial fifty shades of fucked up to even start to fall in love with someone like this?
Even trying to grasp this as I am writing I still find myself shaking my head in disbelief!
But she gets past that.
Sets some hard limits herself which makes the arsehole take a look at his life, and he starts to change.
But even so...
He is still in a relationship with the child molester that started this whole process (How sick is that!)
He is still supporting some of his ex submissive and thats OK?
And when Ana objects to these she needs to be disciplined, which she abides by???
Ana tries to protect herself from this arseholes baggage and yet she is the one that has done the wrong thing in his eyes? And ex sub pulls a gun on her after she breaks into Ana's house and the arsehole goes to the Sub and then baths her and looks after her with no thought for the effect on Ana. Ana has a few drinks with a friend to calm down and she is in the shit! Not the arsehole who put her in this situation to begin with???
And the list goes on and on and on...
Over three books!
Everything is fixed with Kinky Fuckery!
She orgasms on demand....... every time..... several times a day!!
Does she have a different anatomy to normal woman? This man is supposed to be huge, yet she in fine to just go and go and go......
And then after all these dramas and there looks like their might be a happy ending and we get some closure on this disturbing book, we get a glimpse at Christians thoughts during his initial meeting with Ana and we really learn which kind of sick fuck this man really is!!!!
And there ends the book, leaving an opening for another trilogy, same plot from Christians perspective!
This is one trilogy I wont be reading!!!
I am so disturbed beyond comprehension. It has surprised even me that I am thinking about this so deeply and then actually writing about it!!! Its not at all what I do with books!
I read them, there is a happy ending, I forget them and move onto the next Young Adult book.
So, these are my thoughts, I hope this brings me closure.....